I remember for some foolish reason i was mad @ Grandmother May and u kept calling me asking me why wont you talk to her and playfully i said she needs to apologize so u asked me to come to her house and there i met you there u was there with boo and me & jr came in and we all set in grandmothers living room with the window cracked open just chilling i remember thinking wow there is 3/4 generations is in the room right now i remember your smile mommie i remember grandmother smile why did this happen to you mom? why did this happen to grandmother & louise ? why did god brake my family down to nothing? i remember on this day eating all your crispy cream donuts and u saying i bought these donuts for grandmother i think we ended up leaving her like 3/4 donuts we left almost as soon as i got there i was enjoying myself & wondered why we had to leave but u said u had been there for hours waiting on me to come i miss you mom im still left here asking what happened & why i have so many questions with no answers i miss you like crazy i dont know how to feel i feel lonely & empty today is the day we would meet up at fairplay & today i felt that very large hole in my heart & i just want to sink in it i remember new years eve 2010 being @ the grocery store with you that was our thing our bound i even remember the last time we went to the grocery store together what a huge lost i feel no one nobody ma i never imagine this happening to me it all seems like a bad dream that i wish to wake up from its the worst possible void ever for any child to feel ever i miss you mommie Happy New Year My Best Friend Ever in this whole world I Love u sooo much Happy Holidays Jolly Molly p.s i remember the beans on the new year prospiroty wealth health & fortune and love :')