Mommy i know you are looking down on us and watching over us yesterday was miracle's 7th birthday and she enjoyed herself ma i try the best i can without you it is not easy on me and i know on her i remember when she was turning 5 years old and the day before i was doing her hair and she called you crying saying"Grandma aint nobody going to come to my party tomorrow and i remember you telling her dont worry baby grandma going to be there and she lit up like a christmas tree when you told her that wow how it seems like just yesterday and how i wish on the biggest star that you could be there with us its hard ma losing my best friend my one true-blue companion through thick & thin riding life out together my only soul-sister that had my back one hundred grand how can i say good-bye to that i miss you sooo very much words are hard to find to describe my void for you i continue to pray that God gives me wisdom and strength but most days i dont even want to continue to go on with out you its incredibly difficult, hard to except and defenantly hard to deal with one day you are in our presence withus and the next day my world is no-more it no longer exist my heart aches for you daily i still need you, Miracle is getting so big you wouldn't believe i still remember that time we went to A.J Wright on north ave. and cicero (we actually was going to conway your fav. but A.J Wright had some type of buzz we had to check out)how you snatched miracle by the hand when you found out it was the prettiest face contest for A.J Wright and you signed her up so quick it was krazy the love and the bond that you guyz formed together the unconditional love you gave her is awesome and amazing i also remember your birthday 12-5-09 you were a little distraught over terrell and couldnt really unwind and enjoy your self you and miracle took the prettiest picture together you was on one knee hugging her ma we miss you and wish you were here with us it so much we still want to do together we went to the conservatory today and i remember us walking me you and miracle i remember that day it was very hot i remember us together nothing mattered because i had you i for sent us that day and it was hard for me to cope with it i love you mommy and i wish we could spend more time together but our memories i cherish and though i thought this day would never come as difficult as it all is our love that we still continue 's to share is larger than life is self true-love never vanish and i feel it growing larger everyday!